Must Have Been An Angel
Song Credit: "Must Have Been An Angel", Bob Carlisle
I was the lonely one inside
Seemed like my prayers had been denied
I’d come to the decision I’d never find a love that’s true
Down on my knees again in prayer
Dear Lord, please send someone to care
My best imagination could not have dreamed someone like you
They scream and cheer wildly when I walk onstage; they faint and cry when I blow a kiss or toss my hair. My voice makes them melt and all I have to do is show up and it’s the best night of their lives. They wear shirts that say “I love you, Joe” and sweats with my name across the butt, they send me funny hats and Silly String. They hold up signs, “I’ll be your beautiful” and “Burning up for you, Joe” and they think every love song is just for them. They laugh until they cry at all my jokes and watch pointless but hilarious Youtube videos. They love me, this image of me that I present to the world.
But if any one of them saw me curled in a corner, crying and begging God for love, they wouldn’t know what to do. They wouldn’t know how to comfort me. They couldn’t heal my loneliness. No one could do that. Except you. You walked out of the darkness one night and your light made my whole world bright. The way you knelt beside me, asking me what was wrong, your hands so gentle on my face as you brushed away my tears, told me you would never hurt me if you could help it. The softness and care in your eyes for me, a total stranger, was something I had never experienced before. You had no idea who I was. Just a student at the campus where we were performing, on your way home from a night class, and you stumbled on a lonely boy bawling his eyes out against a damp brick wall. Instead of walking by, you stayed. You held me, and you listened. All my angst poured out and you just sat quietly and let me open my hurting heart.
And when I finished, your soft lips brushed my forehead, your hands ran through my hair, and you told me someday I would find someone to love me like I wanted to be loved. You said I would find a love that lasted through the rainy days, that grew stronger through hard times instead of falling apart. In that moment, I knew it would be you. Maybe you didn’t know it yet, but I knew. That someone would be you.
You must have been an angel, I can tell
By the heavenly way my heart felt
Oh it was spiritual, a miracle
That an angel would fall in love with me
You go that heart of gold I swear
You are the answer to my prayers
And so much heavenly power
To make a mortal dream come true
Oh you were heaven sent, I know
For even when the lights are low
I can almost see a halo, girl,
I’m so in love with you, ooh
I’d never met someone so full of life, so pure, so unnaturally perfect. You swore you had your flaws but I never saw them. All I saw was your blinding smile, and I only felt your hand laced in mine. The first night I kissed you I felt like I had defiled you. What flawless angel like you would want the touch of imperfect lips like mine? But you pulled me back to you and kissed me with that angel’s mouth again, and my doubts fled. When you told me you loved me I swear I almost died. But you were heaven’s prize angel, so why would I want to go to heaven if you were still down here on earth?
The first time I saw you cry my heart shattered with the first teardrop’s fall. Some disgusting man had tried to make you his, and I’ll never forget the broken way you fell into my arms. I found that man and I blackened his eye. I would have broken his nose, maybe his jaw, possibly a lot more than that, but you hung on my arm, begging me to stop. You kissed me and swore it was okay, told me to just let it go. It was hard, but it was what you wanted, so I walked away. You made me a better man, made me rise above my own human rage.
You must have been an angel, I can tell
By the heavenly way my heart felt
Oh it was spiritual, a miracle
That an angel would fall in love with me
Girl I’m so glad I found you
Gonna wrap my whole world around you
Oh it’s gonna be so heavenly,
Just you and me
A year ago, I thought God was deaf to my prayers. I thought I would live the rest of my life as a man put together on the outside and broken to pieces on the inside. My faith in God and true love faltered and my heart almost got used to loneliness. But I’ll never doubt God’s love again. He didn’t only send me true love, he sent it in the form of an angel. I know He must be eager to bring you home again, because no one could go without you for very long and be happy about it. But tonight, my angel, I’m asking you to be mine for as long as God leaves us both here. You’re the biggest miracle I’ve ever experienced and I’m not letting you go for anything. Marry me, my angel.
You must have been an angel, I can tell
By the heavenly way my heart felt
Oh it was spiritual, a miracle
That an angel would fall in love with me
