Alright so this is Heather(MyHeartBeatsForKevinJonas) on my second account...I decided to do this one-shot to hold you guys off until I can post in my other FF's which should be soon I've just had a really busy week...I have been working on the Fan fics though..anways this is my first time posting a one-shot on this site so I hope you like it.=D..the song it When I'm With You-Simple Plan
I'm taking my time
I'm trying to leave the memories of you behind
I'm gonna be fine
As soon as I get your picture right out of my mind
I sighed as I flipped through the t.v. channels,it seemed like every channel was talking about Kevin and his brothers.Kevin and I had been best friends since I could remember before he left.I had always loved him as more than a friend but never could get the courage to tell him and now I was seeing him on t.v. doing concert and interviews,playing the guitar like he always loved to do when we were kids.
"Emily I know that you don't want to see him but could you please pick a channel and leave it."Sarah my room mate said sighing a little.
"Sorry."I said as I stopped at a channel that just so happened to be playing the music video for when you look me in the eyes.
I sighed as I slowly got up tossing the remote to her because I couldn't take it any longer.I slowly walked back towards my room and plopped down on the bed as I looked at the picture of us.
I wanna feel the way you make me feel when I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand, you need to hold on to
But everytime I call you don't have time
I guess I'll never get to call you mine
I picked up the phone and dialed his number.
"Hey you've reached Kevin,I can't come to the phone right because I'm either at an interview or on stage rocking my heart out."His voice filled my ears"Leave me a message and I'll try yo get back to you.
"Hey Kev,it's Emily."I said softly sighing"I was just calling to talk to you but I guess your bust so I might call back later hopefully you'll pick up then."
I hung up the phone and threw it across my bed.
You're nothing at all, I know theres a million reasons
why I shouldn't call
With nothing to say, could easily make this
conversation last all day
I wanted to call him back just to hear his voice on the answering machine but I knew I couldn't cause there would be a possibility that he might actually answer and then I would end up yelling at him like I always did when it came down to stuff like that.I heard the house phone ring but I didn't bother to get up because I knew that Sarah would answer it.
"Hey Em it's for you."She said walking in with the cordless phone.
I took it from her as I looked at her with a confused face.She just smiled and shrugged as she quickly walked out of the room shutting the door behind her.
"Hello."I said softly into the phone
"Hey did you call"I heard his voice ask on the other line.
"Yeah I did,I was watching t.v. and your new music video came on."I said softly"So I thought I'd call and talk to you plus there's kinda something I need to tell you."
"I miss you too Emmy."Kevin said softly"But I really can't talk right now so I'll call you later."
"But we just started talking."I said sighing"And I think later might be to late."
"I know but I have to go to sound check."He said softly ignoring the fact that I said later might be to late.
Before I could say anything else he had hung the phone up.I quickly turned to off and threw it onto the floor as hard as I could as the tears started to fall down my face.I didn't understand how he could do that to me when I was his best friend.
I wanna feel the way you make me feel when I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand, you need to hold on to
But everytime I call you don't have time
I guess I'll never get to call you mine
He tried to call me back later that night but I let Sarah answer it and she told him that I was asleep,when really I was sitting right next to her bawling my eyes out knowing that if I answered the phone that he would know I had been crying.
Another lesson I didn't get to learn
Your my obsession
I've got nowhere to turn
~The Next Day~
"He called again last night after you really went to bed."Sara said softly as I walked into the kitchen that morning.
"Like it really matters."I said softly as I grabbed my car keys and headed out into the cold without my jacket.I got into my car and started it as I pulled away and headed down the road.
I ended up at the old park where Kevin and I used to hang out at.The last place that I saw them.
~Flashback~
Kevin reached over taking my hand and I felt a cold shill go down my spine as we walked.I glanced over at him trying to figure out what was going on and then it hit me,what if he was finally going to tell me how he felt.May just maybe he wanted to be more than friends.I looked ahead of us as we walked over to our tree where he had carved our initials when we were thirteen.
"Emily there's something I need to tell you."He said softly looking down,he didn't look happy about it in fact he looked really sad.
"Kev."I said softly as I put my hand up to his cheek as a tears rolled down it.
"Emily do you remember me talking about what was happening with our record label?"He asked as he looked up at me.
"Yeah."I said softly.
"Well we signed to hollywood records."He said softly putting his hand over mine.
"Kev that's great."I said smiling.
"There something else."He said taking my hand away from his face"Where moving."
My smile turned into a frown.
"When?"I asked my voice cracking.
He looked at his feet and then back up at me.
"Tomorrow."He whispered.
I felt the tears start to form in my eyes and I collasped into his arms.
That was when he had promised me that we would keep in touch and he would call me and text me everyday.So much for promises.
~End of Flashback~
I wanna feel the way you make me feel when I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand, you need to hold on to
But everytime I call you don't have time
I guess I'll never get to call you mine
I walked out to our tree and stood by it as I looked out at the pond.
"Emily."Someone said from behind me.I didn't need to turn around to know that it was him.
"What are you doing here."I asked still not turning around.
"I got worried about you when you didn't want to talk to me."He said softly"We had a day off so I flew out here."
"Oh so when did you start wanting to care about me?"I asked turning around to face him.
"I'm sorry Emmy,I've just been really busy this last year."He said softly.
"Yeah so busy you couldn't take a little time to talk to you friend who's been trying to talk to you for the past week."I said softly biting my lip as I quickly walked past him so that he wouldn't see me crying.He quickly grabbed my arm and pulled me back in front of him gently.
"Emmy what did you need to tell me last night?"He asked looking into my eyes.
"Kevin,it dosen't matter anymore."I said looking away from him"Because I'm over it."
"Please just tell me I Emmy I really want to know."He said making me looked back at him and take a deep breathe.
"I loved you."I whispered as tears stung my eyes"I wanted to tell you so bad but everytime you had something more important."
"Em...."
"Kev just let go of me."I said softly as I shook my head"Because your nothing to me anymore."
I saw sadness in his eyes as he slowly let go of me and I walked past him and walked to my car as I slowly got in and looked up to see him standing there with tears in his eyes.
"Goodbye Kev."I whispered as the tears fell down my face and I slwoy pulled out of the parking lot and headed back towards my apartment.
I would just have to learn to forget about my best friend Kevin Jonas.
I wanna feel the way you make me feel when I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand, you need to hold on to
But everytime I call you don't have time
I guess I'll never get to call you mine
