kaaaayyy. you girls KNOW that this is dedicated to you. :]
KJN Jonas famila <3
Suffering in the Moment.
prologue.
You look so beautiful today, when you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away..
Dear Journal,
It's happening to me again and I don't know what to do. I get that feeling almost everytime now. Everywhere I go I see something that relates to her. Journal, when you fall in love, there's this feeling that you'll always get, because your heart will always be a part of the hurt and the laughs. If everything goes your way, then there's no point in choice, is there? My Mother always tells me that everything happens for a reason. The hard part for me though, is finding out what that reason might be. You know, it's so hard to find the girl of your dreams. Sometimes, you're so blind, that you don't even realize that she's right infront of you. If you really look past a girl's beautiful eyes, you realize that only real eyes, can realize real lies. After all this, you know, I still dont understand. I still don't understand why it had to be me. I still don't understand why I had to be the one to fall in love so quickly. The weak one. The vulnerable one. I don't know why I have a heart that can break or fall apart so easily. I don't know why I had to be the one to suffer.
You know, once you fall in love, you can't fall out of it. Love will always follow you, no matter how fast you run away, or how much you deny or hide it. When you fall in love, there's a chance that you'll get hurt. There's a chance that you'll fall, and no one will catch you. But that's a chance you have to take. No matter how much you don't want to. When you fall in love, there are things that you have to face. Even if you don't want to. When you fall in love, there are possibilities of being a new person. Creating someone new, making new memories, and making new mistakes. You find yourself as a new someone else, taking bigger and longer steps. Your life is like a book. When you fall in love, you wonder how the chapters will turn out. Will they turn out as you expected? Or worse?
I think I gave all my happiness away to her that I forgot to leave some for me.
When you fall in love, you're part of a new beginning. A new life. When you're in love, there are these feelings that you won't be able to explain. If you fall in love, there are chances of love taking over enitrely. So much, that you forget who you are. Who you love and care for. I'm tired of that. I'm tired of thinking that you're in love, and finding out that I was only being used because of my fame. I'm tired and I can't stand it anymore. When you're in love, you're suffering in the moment..
KAY! Guess who the Jonas is ladies!
I like reading your guesses. :P
