Chapter 4: Forever & Always?
I had a bad feeling today. When we have concert, I always feel confident, but not today. I have this really strange feeling in my chest. Like I feel something bad is going to happen to someone I love.
We were on our way to the venue. I felt impatient.
I had just texted Aisling. ‘Well Babe. Im going 2 da venue. I’ll talk to u later. ILY. Forever.’ She texted back ‘ILY2. I’ll always <3 U. Forever & Always. I’ll always b here 4 u. Bye.’
Something about this made me feel sad. As if I was telling her ‘I love you’ for the last time. I texted again to her ‘Remember that I’ll always <3 u.’
I then shut off my phone. We had already arrived at the venue. I tried to shake off the bad feeling, but I just couldn’t.
I changed, did the meet and greet, and then went on stage.
Sometime during the middle of the show though, the feeling in my heart got bigger. It even hurt. I felt as if I couldn’t breathe. I felt an extreme sadness and a tear slipped my eyes. I tried to hide it though. As soon as the show ended I ran off stage. I turned on my phone to call Aisling. Maybe she can comfort me.
I had thirty missed calls. I ignored them and dailed Aisling’s number. Nothing, no answer. I tried five more times before giving up. Then, I checked my missed calls. They were from Aisling’s parents. Their house number and both of their cellphone numbers were shown on the screen repeatedly. I entered my dressing room and my mom and dad soon came in after me.
“Joe we need to talk to you.” My father said as he sat down on one of the chairs in the room.
My mother and father had a glum look on their faces. I said, “What’s wrong?” My mother started sobbing softly. I said, “Mom, don’t scare me! Just say it.” Instead of my mom talking, my dad did, “Aisling is dead. I’m sorry Joe. I know you loved her. We really loved her too. She was considered a part of the family.” I said, “What? No! I just talked to her a few hours ago.”
I sat down too. The news was too dreadful for me to handle.
My father continued, “We’re really sorry Joe. Re-” I interrupted him, “No! You’re lying! Aisling is NOT dead! No! She can’t be.” My mom walked over to me and hugged me, “She’s gone Joseph. She’s gone.” I started breaking down slowly until I got to the point where I was really bawling, “No! No! Aisling! But how did that happen?! I just talked to her before the concert.” My mother said, “Her parents called us and told us. A car ran her over. She died on the way to the hospital.”
I said, “What? It’s all my fault. I should have been there. If I would have been there, maybe this would have never happened!” My father said, “Joe, its NOT your fault.” I told them, “Can you please leave me alone?” My mom said, “Joe-” I didn’t let her say anything, “Please, just leave me alone.”
They left the room.
I said to myself, “It is my fault. It is, I know it.”
I woke up.
I relived the day Aisling passed away. I had tears in my eyes and cold sweat on my face. I can’t believe I’m still having that dream. I’d much rather have Aisling visit me in my dreams. The words she last said (A/N: Texted actually XD) to me were echoing in my head, ‘ILY2. I’ll always <3 U. Forever & Always. I’ll always b here 4 u. Bye.’
Forever & Always?
Really? She didn’t keep her promise. Maybe I SHOULD move on. If she didn’t keep her promise, it’s not worth it for me to keep it. I just need to find that girl, Ashley. I think that was her name. Ashley…
