I already know who it was nick
what do you want nick?
Why are you mad again i mean before we went outside you were fine
i know but seeing the paparazzi made me think about how my life is now going to be changed
well you know if you get a record deal with hollywood records you will have to get used to paparazzi
yeah i thought of that but aleast that would be because i would be a celeb not going out with nick jonas everyone is going to think
that i used you to become famous so i have thought about it and im not auditioning
not auditioning tawnee you have an amazing voice you have too this is proberly your only chance to prove your talent.
I know but i don't want rumors about me i just wouldn't be able to deal with that.
Tawnee you have to audition please think about it i'll tell the paparazzi me and you are just friends we won't go out in public until it calms down
that sounds okay i guess
so are you going to audition?
i'll tell you in the morning just leave
Why do you keep telling me that nick said turning around to face me our faces were so close to each other
Look i didn't mean it in a bad way im sorry a single tear came from my eye i have said that to him many times
No its okay please don't cry tawnee im the one look tawnee if you want to break up its okay just remember what i said at the resturant umm..so goodnight
Nick turned around to leave but i didn't let him.
Nick wait im so sorry for over reacting im stupid i guess im just not used to this please can we just forget this even happen.
I can't forget this easily
i know nick im so confused with everything i keep listening to what my mind is saying and not my heart
but now im trying to listen to my heart and its telling me to give you a chance and its telling me things are going to be okay.
Whats your mind telling you?
Its telling me the opposite
i know that you are afraid because paparazzi can put a person under pressure but just remember i will be there.
nick are you sure my heart is complete with you and what im saying is don't leave because you will take my heart with you and it will never heal so don't leave even if i tell you to don't
i would never
i knew from that moment things will be okay we were going to go public and nick told me to not listen to what paparazzi will say if i audition for hollywood records they will focus more on my music and not me and nick so
i told nick that im auditioning for hollywood records.
I can hardly wait till saturday but guess what nicks leaving even though he said he would never i have to face reality he doesn't live over here in jersey but its fine i'll see him on friday.

Tawnee wake up come on wake up i have to go soon
no leave
again with leave
i suddenly sat up nick im sorry i just say that when im tired i mean to leave me sleep im sorry ni...
he put his finger over my lips to stop me from talking
tawnee its fine
i sighed nick im going to miss you im so sorry for everything
it okay now we're even
im going to miss you too tawnee but its only two days
I know but i still feel so bad for overreacting
no tawnee its fine thats the past now do you want to go eat breakfast i cooked
sure
me and nick walked downstairs and i heard joe and kevin talking and joe singing something that sounded like
"let me see your body bounce baby"but in a werid voice i asked joe what are you singing
we're writting this song named bounce for our fans its not really a single its just a funny song that nick came up with but im changing the lyrics and we're almost done then in a couple of weeks when we go to new york for the charity concert we're going to flim the video.
Whos in the video
well all of us and demi...
demi omg i love her music i have to meet her
tawnee calm down breath why don't you get starstuck for us?joe asked
you guys i have known you most of my life and even if your superstars you are still the same person i knew but joe i didn't remember you being this weird
tawnee im hurt joe said placing his hand over his heart like my comment hurt him
good i said
nick is the breakfast almost ready?joe asked
yes joe nick said annoyed
is he annoying you nick?i asked
yes he is
i'll beat him up for you
your proberly will he can't fight for nothing
nick im hurt also i can't take no more of these hurtful comments im leaving
good me kevin and nick said together
joes jaw dropped and he got up and pretended like he was leaving but said i would leave but im hungry but after i eat im leaving
we all rolled our eyes at joe and i nodded my head no and thought could joe get anymore weirder
I guess so
Breakfast is ready nick said
finally joe said
nick came with my plate fist
what ever happened with family first joe said
what ever happened with ladies first nick said
joe said whatever
thanks nick i said once joe finished talking
your welcome me dear
i couldn't help but blush
aww look at tawnee blushing kevin said finally talking
i looked down at my plate and waited for everyone to sit
nick sat next to me and we all said grace
and started eating joe was quiet for once but i kept feeling a pair of eyes watching me of course it was nick
i made believe i didn't notice but i also couldn't help but smile and he noticed that
once we were done i helped nick with the dishes while kevin and joe went to go get ready
why were you staring at me nick?
im going to miss you and you are just so beautiful
i felt my face turn red and tryed my best to make him blush
your not to bad yourself
he smiled and his face turned a little red but proberly not as red as mine
did my face turn red?nick asked
yeah did my face turn red?
yeah it did so are we going to have a competition now to see who makes one blush
sure
well its a competition so im going to win
how do you know
because i know
we're see about that mr.jonas

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HI TAWNEE SORRY I HAVEN'T UPDATED THIS STORY I WANT TO START A NEW FAN FICTION AND I WAS WONDERING IF YOU COULD HELP ME COME UP WITH AN IDEA FOR A STORY BUT IM GOING TO FINISH THIS STORY BECAUSE I LIKE WRITTING IT :) I HOPE YOU LIKE THIS CHAPTER ITS MOSTLY ABOUT WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT BECOMING FAMOUS THE NEXT ONE SHOULD BE POSTED SOON

Well nick left so i have nothing else to do but practice and

practice for my audition i leave on thursday today is wendesday so i have to start packing soon of course my mom is coming with me she would never let
me go across the country even if im 16.
My audition is sure to wow them i hope i really want this audition.
My song was written by me so i hope they like it because my songs show what im feeling yeah a cover of certain songs reflect me and my feelings but there about the person thats singing not 100% me so i hope they like this song
nick keeps telling me their going to love it i hope hes right.
I keep saying hope alot i noticed because thats what i need hope or maybe luck.Alot of things don't go my way so i think luck is out of the question.
Just imagine going to hollywood a place i only been once and being a celeb invited to all the celeb birhtday parties just imagine meeting miley and meeting demi
she is one reason why i love singing so much now.So many other people i could meet actors but if i do make it i know its not going to go to my head because i will be too thankful because all of that could go away within one second so
i will enjoy singing and preforming going on tour no matter if theres only one person there because i'll be thankful that i have a fan.
I can't wait to go this could be the start of my furture.

Next day
All packed and ready to go

Mom you ready to go we're going to be late
yeah i'll be right there.
i was so tired but who wouldn't be when its only 4 o clock in the morning but it will be worth it i hope.
My mom finally came downstairs with alot of bags.
Wow mom its only the weekend
well i might to change it could be cold which it mostly won't or it could warm or hot so i packed for the weather
wow mom okay lets go.

At the airport

The airport was almost empty all you saw was business people i guess i was one of them because i was going for a job interview.
We stood in line and all i did was look around what if i got a record label and became famous i would be in line with fans all surroundings me for a picture or autograph and paparazzi taking pictures of my every move.
That can all happen it can happen next month if i release a singal would i want this to happen?maybe i love my space and fans always surrounding you will be kind of annoying but then again i have to think about my thoughts yesterday when i said i would be thankful
i would be but it would be also annoying paparazzi following you i know im already known around the world as nick jonas girlfriend but im not that famous so i really im not sure now i feel like running away get out of line miss the flight on accident
or accidently on purpose either way im not sure.I hate it when i can see my furture all blurry not clear.It would have been better if i never met joe nick or kevin or any jonas and i would perfectly fine or would was this how my life was suppose to turn out?
no of course not im only going to an audition because of nick and im very thankful for that but i would never adjust to this life im not going to audition i can't
I finally stopped having a conversation in my head and decied i wasn't going it was only five more minutes to the flight so i had to tell my mom.
Mom
yeah
i can't go
what do you mean you can't go why?
because mom if i get this record label im not going to like the life that comes with it yes i would be thankful but i wouldn't handle it can we just go
no you shouldn't let your fears get in your way of chasing your dream
i know you want that label deal and i know you feel like your life would change and it will for the better if i had your talent i would love fans coming up to me surrounding me because that means your music has meaning to them and their there to support you paparazzi
you should feel thankful that means you made a mark on the enterainment world look tawnee we can leave this airport and go home or you go on the airplane and chase your dream and become the next big thing its up to you
My mom made alot of sense i could share my music or stay locked up in my room where no one could hear me and keep my music to me help me get though whatever when it could be helping someone get though something in their life.
SO?
im going
thats the tawnee i know

FLIGHT 443 to CALIFORNIA
NOW BOARDING
HAVE A SAFE FLIGHT

Hollywood here i come i said to myself....

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